Mother's Day

Well its approaching yet again.. I am feeling a tad at odds.. something about this day.. without her really bothers Me.. I know its a celebration and I will honor her spirit again this year.. but sometimes the memory fades.. that scares me.. I think I can hear her laugh.. or feel her .. it was cold here the other day.. I walked Percy.. and put her old sheepskin gloves on.. yes they still have her scent in them.. I feel comforted by them.. but I don't fool myself.. these too will fade after time.. I was thinking about the bleeding hearts and white narcissis flowers that were her favorites at our country house.. they were always a stable there each year in the U shapped garden and as a cornerstone plant on the corner of the house.. Now all that is gone.. the new owners years back took them away.. I hope the lilac trees are still there when I drive up on Sunday..

Should I ever have a place of my own.. these two are sure to be planted.. in her honor.. as well a horsechestnut tree.. Oh well I am bumming myself out.. I guess I better go.. before the tears are yet aflow..


Love Ya Mom.. Where ever You are !!!